Mae talking
This week its been kind of weird. Out of the blue, Mae will start talking to me. I mean in a normal way. A lot of times when I hear her, its sort of like hearing someone down a long tunnel, or maybe through a …maybe a dense fog, kinda muddled, I guess you could say. Its like hearing her from far away, the words not very clear.
But then 2 or 3 or 4 times recently I have heard her plain as day. The other night just all of a sudden she started talking to me, unfortunately I can’t remember what it was about, maybe Christmas. I can’t remember what it was the other times either but I just remember that it happened, because it sort of shocked me. I didn’t ignore her or anything, I talked back (if I’m alone, which I usually am of course, I talked out loud, if I’m around other people, I talk inside). I thought we were sorta getting along a little.
(This was written a few days ago. I wanted to update my journal. Today is not such a good day. Something difficult happened tonight with me (nobody) and switching and I'm not sure what went wrong but I dont think therapy ended good today. I just want to disappear. I hate myself. )
oh-- they made it through october. for that they all gotta remember to be happy.
Caroline's going to make us all make a list of things to be glad about for this time of year.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
hello
i think your story is very interesting!
maybe you can write down something on a paper and put it under your pillow before you go to sleep you write down something like:''can you tell me clearly what you want to say I will listen to you.''
it helps me very much!!!
greetings sandra
I was gonna ask if you and Mae were on stronger footing, and she was crying less and out within more. I'm glad your relationship got stronger.I'm sure if nobody or any other came out in therapy and said things that scared Mae, you may have to back step a bit. I wish nobody would consent to talk to you more.Putting a card in the mail today...a little something for you and a little something for Mae.Love and Blessings, JudyPS See my comment of today about depression...that's how it is for me anyway.