Dealing with other people...and i am not demon-possessed.
Last night I got an e mail from and old friend, checking to see how I'm doing. We've been friends for 16 years. She knows that I've had an eating disorder, so she always asks how my eating is going. she always asks about family, and my job.
i always have to tell her everything is fine.
I could never, ever tell her what things are really like.
I already know what her reaction would be. "Uh...hmm... well. Yes. Multiple personalities, you say. Well. Have you prayed about that?"
She's in the camp that DID isn't real, that it is actually demon posession. I've lost a couple friends already over this particular gem. Christians who don't get to know what the problem is, but decide they know whats going on. A couple years ago I got along fine with a good friend, until I admitted to her my secret:all of a sudden, she decided I was demon-posessed and she didn't like me anymore. I tried to explain to her that she'd already been interracting with several of the others, and she sure seemed to like them then. But she wouldn't hear of it: all of a sudden, I was evil and posessed. Bye.
This happened with another friend recently as well.
I find this especially interesting since I'm a Christian as well,... but I guess I find it hard to believe that the crying 5 year old inside me who just wants her mommy and her blankie could possibley be a demon.
I wish I didn't have to keep things a secret. I wish I could just be myself. Unfortunately, to keep being friends with some people... it requires a lot of compromise (all on my part...but I will never bring that up.)
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Hi Dear Pilgrim,I am Judy and I have been posting on Health Diaries under chronic pain, Fibromyalgia.I wandered around the site today and found you, and your posts.I've been reading from the first posts forward and made it to this post, Dealing with Other people.Each of your posts have reached out to my heart and touched me and I care about you and am so eager to read more and follow through this all with you.I knew nothing of DID other than what I've read or seen and No I did not see Sybil (I'm 41), but I've heard of it. I'm learning through your posts as you are learning to live within the trappings of the one body with peopleinaverysmallareawantingtododifferentthings and your feelings and thoughts.I just had to post at this point at my shock and sadness for you that friends would judge and classify you as demonic or possessed. You are absolutely right, what is evil about a little 5 yr old in you rocking and crying? NOTHING As a Christian I rebuke Satan and his works, and I rebuke the people in this world that would put his label on something they just can't understand.As I understand it DID most commonly occurs when small children are horrifically abused and alternate personalities appear to take different roles and protect the child. I know that's a rough explanation and I don't mean to say it's that simple. It's just that it occurs way before a person is old enough to do this on purpose, if it could be done that way.And as I read about you dealing with Mae, the 5 year old, I remember me when my daughter was 5 and how tired I'd be at the end of the day working and parenting and trying to keep it all together. You are in a way, parenting this 5 year old and dealing with her behaviour demands and fears 24/7. I commend you for what you wrote to her in your previous post which was a letter to everyone inside, that you're big now and can listen and help and are there for her/for YOU.I have to stop reading here for today, but I will pick up tomorrow and hopefully catch up with you soon.God loves you just as you are....remember that, even in the face of 'christian' critics.Hugs and Blessings, Judy